Surprised emotion in this journey

There is so much more to weight loss than just weight loss.  It brings up emotions that I didn't expect.  Grief for one.  You might say, how could that be?  It doesn't really make sense.  But, really, it does.  I didn't expect grief to be part of the process, but I'm not sure what else to call what I feel.  Eating was a great comfort for me.  If I was feeling bad about something, I could eat certain foods and soothe myself.  I would eat as a reward, too.  If I felt good about something I accomplished or was just having a good day, a special food made it even better.  Now, I know this is not the right way to feel about food, but it is a fact.  Food is to nourish our bodies.  But, it is more than that for many of us.  I don't think I'm alone in this.  I have discovered that many of those feel good foods, I am now not able to tolerate.They make me feel bad instead of good or comforted by them. This is sad in a way, but also optimistic.  I now have to find new ways besides eating to comfort myself.  Also, I need to find new ways to celebrate victories in my life. This is not so easy, when eating is part of many of our ways of celebration.  I have talked of this before. I am just discovering this is so personal for me. It is a grieving process to let go of old habits.  It's hard.  I've found it is also a big part of this process.  I'm working on this daily. I don't have all the answers.

So, I'm so pleased to be losing weight, but also feeling sadness in letting go.

More discoveries to come, I am sure.

Until then,
woof, meow and xoxo from me and my gang.